Monday, August 8, 2011

From A Distance


"Distance not only gives nostalgia, but perspective, and maybe objectivity."
~Robert Morgan


On an impulse, I slipped my camera from my purse and took some photos on my flight's ascent. Many thoughts twirled through my mind--the ever present angst of traveling alone with my invisible syndrome terrorist, those I was leaving behind, my destination.

I became philosophical viewing the distant horizon from my sitting on the clouds vantage. With the clarity of altitude, the mysterious beyond lost the secrecy of my limited ground level view. I could see the hidden mountain range rising behind the rugged terrain of Mt. Garfield. The rough sandy erosion took on an artistic design.

Roads became winding ribbons with visible destinations, not just obscure roamings. From a distance, pot holes, rough terrain, and detours did not exist; though I knew they were there. Fields had distinct boundaries, rows planted in uniform formation.

From a distance, altitude made sense of ground level disorder. I thought about me, my life, my future. Sometimes I allow the uncertainty of circumstances to cloud the vision of my horizon. I get lost, turned around, or sidetracked. Maybe if I can keep my attitude at a higher altitude, I can maintain a clearer focus during those confusing times. Take a step back and look up--from an emotional distance.

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Sunday, August 7, 2011

SPS - Living as Wile E. Coyote

Chuck Jones said, “Wile E. is my reality, Bugs Bunny is my goal.”

Diagnosed with Stiff Person syndrome, I am living a Looney Tunes reality as Wile. E. Coyote. The ever unpredictable efficiency of "Acme" prescriptions, situation or emotional stimulus, combined with my personal Wile. E. cunning is a potential recipe for "Th-th-th-that's all Folks!" My only hope is to capture the ease and speed of mainstream living as the Road Runner, completely resistant to all dangers and evil.

SPS is so hard to explain, the triggers, symptoms, spasms. This cartoon captures some of the fearful uncertainties of some types of syndrome spasm, minus the frozen full-body rigidity. And in every cartoon, Wile. E. falls--several times.

Swallowing the earthquake pills, similar to stimulus overload for me, Wile. E. demonstrates the trepidation, unpredictability, and strength of Stiff Person Syndrome spasms...with the ending death-defying fall. The Road Runner, "normal" humanity, is unaffected by stimulus overload.



And like Wile. E., I will appear in another episode of attempt vs. the odds. Persistent.

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